Unbelievable... but true and I give all the glory to God. I have a little girl- my own, to hold in my arms. She smiles when she wakes up from her nap and flaps her arms. She is so excited to see her MOMMY- and that's me! I am so happy. We have had our ups and downs. I have discovered that being a Mom is nothing like what I expected but it has so many outstanding joys. I love my little girl but I do miss my little one that I can only hold in my heart. I find myself thinking about Alina having a big sister- what would it be like. So much life has happened since we lost Dasha. I cherish my memory of her as it grows more and more distant and fleeting. It is like a dream and then some days the loss feels like deep gashes and an open wound. I miss her and hope to be a wonderful mom who cherishes every moment with my little girl that I can scoop and hold anytime I want. Thank you heavenly Father for being merciful and kind. You have given me the gift that I so desperately wanted. I praise your Name!